went to a "sin city" party lastnight. was pretty cool. hung out with my sister's friends, and waverly garber showed up. that was pretty sweet. but then i was expecting to not do anything till sunday, but then i got a free ticket to go to hershey park with my sister and my 7 year old cousin. so i went today. it was alright cuz we went on all the kid rides, watched the dolphin show, and zoo america. but at 2:30 my cousin left and my sister and i hung out there, riding the roller coasters. there was this red headed kid infront of us in the line for the great bear. and it was really funny cuz his eyebrows were red, his leg hair was red, and he missed while shaving so he had weird red hair patches on his face. but the funniest thing was the fact that he acted like he was the coolest. and he totally was a nerd. pretty humorous.

there was a time when i believed in love, but now i know its kid fairytale stuff.

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i had a bittersweet night lastnight. it was sweet because i got to hang out with braydon, which i havent done in awhile. and it was really awesome. but the bitter part was the fact that i took mary pickett, and she made it awkward the whole time. i dont think she should be allowed to lead me on like so.

me, braydon, and david sollenberger spent a long time thinking of what girls from etown would be good to date, who would last a long time, and be meaningful. we came to the conclusion that there is nobody (except a select few that would be really good.....but they dont like me as a person) at etown that i know would be someone that i would enjoy dating.

Braydon: "i talk to david all night long."
Sollenberger: "but who wouldnt want to talk to david all night long?"
Me: "every girl i have ever met! HAHAHAHA!......ouch.....my heart hurts."

there was a time when i believed in love, but now i know its kid fairytale stuff.

so is it reasonable that i feel a little depressed considering that the last 3 days, all the plans that i have made(i made 6 different plans to hang out with ppl) have fallen through. on thursday i was supposed to hang out with my sister, didnt happen, mary pickett was to call me back, didnt happen, on friday my sister was gonna have lunch with me, didnt happen, supposed to go to mary's, didnt happen, gonna have friends come to sleep over, didnt happen, and then tonight, gonna have braydon, jennilee, and mary come over, mary couldnt come, then braydon, jennilee and kyleigh, kyleigh couldnt come, and then braydon called to tell me that neither him or jennilee could come. now i feel depressed because it seems like no one wants to hang out. i only hope that things work out on monday.

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there was a time when i believed in love, but now i know its kid fairytale stuff.

alright, so i was supposed to hang out with this girl today. and i was really looking forward to it. and then she didnt call me back last night, but i thought "hey i'll call her tomoro." so today came and i called her cell twice, no answer. and finally i called her house. and she was home, but she said,"my parents are real big on the whole group stuff, so maybe if you got more ppl to hang out we could do it. so get braydon and jennilee and we can hang sometime." WHAT?! this coming from the girl that the night before she left for las vegas she went on a date with this guy....just the two of them. and i personally think a date is so much more risky than just hanging out, at her house, with her parents around. plus i really respect her as a person so i wouldnt try anything cuz i know she wouldnt like it. so i dont know what to do. i think i'm gonna give up on her, and to all those ppl that told me that she wasnt worth my time, you were right and i'm sorry i doubted you.

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 check out my song in the last post.

there was a time when i believed in love, but now i know its kid fairytale stuff.

i hate how everybody is online talking to ppl whenever your not on, but as soon as you get on, nobody else is. i havent talked to anyone and i've been on for an hour. so this is the second post today, and i feel like a tool. but i dont care, i wrote a song and want you to read it. but i also want you to read the other post i wrote today.

Bang!

VERSE 1
you lived your live all alone, the help of others was never needed.
the tides have turned and they came to your rescue.
Cuz they know how you are, and they, want to be where you are.
you change your live to accomodate their lives, and they never thanked you for it
your only use was to come to their rescue.
cuz they know how you are, and they, want to be where you are.

CHORUS
then one day when you think you know each other.
without som much as a goodbye they leave your side.
you think you can handle it on your own.
but you know you wont make it on your own.

VERSE 2
spent your life in a search, for the life you once had to yourself.
your hopes looked grim but you never gave up
cuz you knew who she was, and you, want to be where she is
you lived a life with her once, and you asked her to run away.
she turned you down cuz it was certain death.
cuz you knew who she was, and you, want to be where she is.

CHORUS
then one day when you think you know each other.
without so much as a goodbye they leave your side.
you think you can handle it on your own.
but you know you wont make it on your own.

BRIDGE
and when you finally find the one you long to find
just a few minutes and then shes snagged from your side"
and when you finally find the one you long to find
and her life's taken from you by an angel in the sky

CHORUS 2
then one day after you lost her
you go to avenger her in the night
and though your life was taken that fateful night
you still stand victorious

ENDING
and with your last breathe, a final BANG

so let me know what you think. i thought i would change all the "you" related words to "i" related words. and dont forget to read my last entry.

there was a time when i believed in love, but now i know its kid fairytale stuff.